Zen of Jake
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even a good thing may become bad if used to its extreme. moderation is key. if i work too hard i have no fun. if i play too hard i get nothing done. balancing our responsibilities with our passions is a necessity
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pride
A prideful man cannot see his own pride. Having already believed himself to be ‘good’, you cannot tell him or convince him otherwise. He has already chosen his position. Pride is the arrogance to always believe oneself right. To hold oneself in superiority towards others. A prideful man cannot believe that he is prideful, that would contradict the pride.
Pride is the only spiritual illness you cannot self diagnose. -
Are You Broken or Just Broken-hearted?
You who are all knowing
I who am all willing
The one they call god
Are you all loving?
The one who cannot be healed
A broken stone
Are you caring?
Are you god?
Yesterday I was happy
Yesterday I was a fool
Why does increasing wisdom
Come with increasing pain
The further I go the weaker my heart gets
How much father until my heart breaks
Why is there so much pain
For such little a gain
When I am wise as the prophets
Will my heart explode
When I find the purest joy
What sorrows will be told
My name is the name of misery
my pain, the pain of centuries
lifetimes of sorrow have befallen me
tomorrow I will be only a memory
to you who are all knowing
are you also caring?
To you who are loving
Do you ease the pain of suffering?
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I see your pain and I see you
How beautiful a nighttime gloom
From glory you came here
That tomorrow your joy may bloom
You agree with everything I’ve said
But you live in a world of regret
Words have loved me
And worlds have praised me
To you who are faithless
Are you faithful?
You who are joyless
Where is your joy?
How many lifetimes do you wish
How many seconds chances do you get
I once saved a child from death
I will again save a man from all that’s left
How many tears have you shed?
I tell you, this isn’t as bad as it gets.
You cry out for my attention?
You scream for a god’s help?
Don’t you know what they call me?
all knowing.
all willing.
all loving.
all healing.
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What does it mean to be a man
And where does time go after the fallen sand
Who counts the steps that I take
Who writes down the letters of my mistakes
Can a god ever be real
Is there a peace I will ever feel?
I’ve known the different between being lonely
And being alone.
I’ve felt the pain from laughter
And the pain from gloom.
Is there a difference between depression
And being depressed?
Is there a difference between being loved
And being dismissed?
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Are you broken
Or just broken-hearted?
Cry away girl, cry away
I’ve shed tears for your misery
Come with me girl, I know the way
Come with me and you’ll be ok
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Love's Energy
If I only spoke to you in words
What would you know of me?
If you were to me only what I heard
Could I love those memories?
Would you love my memory?
Without ever feeling my energy?This world believes in less and less
As science teaches us what’s real;
I liked people more when they
Believed in something they could feel.
Loves lost it’s energy
The feelings behind the word
And you would only be a memory
If love didn’t grow roots.
Now I am torn between worlds
Of thought, feeling, and control;
Though I could will the sounds from me,
I’d rather give you my energy. -
holy abortion
I saw a king casting his crowns
The screams of queens and peasants all loud
The jester hording his masters riches
Something’s gone wrong in this kingdom
I’ll create gods beneath my feet
And make them do my bidding to the human race
Some will heal and some will curse
And they will call them “God”
Singing songs to the makers of terror
The real anarchists of the earth
Praising the chaos of their hearts
Hymns passed around like heroin
I used to believe in church and fairy tales
And listen to men speak of what they don’t understand
What qualifies a man to teach another of love and life?
Of heaven and hell
We’re the passive terrorist
The catholics and non-denominationalists
Corrupting soul after soul to join an army
To fight a war against intelligence
You capture souls not set them free
and damn them with you in eternity
worshippers of form and formation
praising the chaos in their hearts;
they praise a “spirit” terrorist
and I am your god, the abomination
you once had something good within you
until the pastor gave you an abortion
you’ll bleed slowly now
you’ll feel so “holy” now
and then somehow;
you’ll love them for it… -
mentat
Leave nothing undone. I don’t think that I am a perfectionist. I don’t judge the quality of my work. But in everything I do I try all options. I exhaust the possibilities. There is a type of mind that does not stop until every aspect of thought is rationalized and understood. I find that when I have an experience I will later reflect upon it. During my reflections I dismantle it, tear it apart, separate my own personal thoughts on the matter, disconnect the emotions from the actions, and view the experience as raw, unedited, uncategorized data.
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second chances
I took all your second chances and gave them to the poor
To the undeserving so they could live again
I reached into the sky and took brightness from the stars
And put a sparkle back in your eye
I’ve noticed it rains more year by year
The sky doesn’t look so beautiful today
And neither do you baby,
Neither do you
I changed the world and made you a paradise
Why then do they call it hell?
I am that flawed a maker
I am that desperately in love
Who’s dreamed the same dream of a perfect world
And who defines the same terms of perfection?
I never judged the stars
I only stole from heaven until they were ours
I don’t think I can change
I don’t think I’d want to
Will you save us baby?
Will you pull the plug on me?
Sleep comes to the weariest of souls
The stars are still there we just can’t see behind the storm
In the final day every tear will be wiped away
So cry harder baby, while we still have tears to shed
Cry for us both, baby
it’s too late for me, I’m already dead -
dream - to change the world
[Hello there? Anywhere at all? To anyone who will listen…]
If I could change the world
If I could shape the earth
I would run far from here
Put two stars in the sky
I’d never see my shadow again[Who’s there? Anyone near? No one listens, no one cares…]
One day I will change the world
Everyone will be dizzy when the world stands still
I’d live on the sunny side with my memories
Of a long lost land called “abomination”
And his sister EveWhat would I tell my children when they asked why they can’t sleep?
What would I tell my wife when she can’t see the star I named for her in the sky? -
creating positive energy
We can create energy in ourselves. If we feel depressed or anxious or any sort of “downing” feeling, we can instantly change. How do I know this? There are some mornings that when my alarm goes off it takes me a long time to get out of bed, my head will hurt, I’ll be totally tired and sleepy still. Those are the mornings I have to go to my 8AM class or go to work or something. On a morning when I’m going on a road trip to visit my girlfriend I hop out of bed instantly, pack my stuff in 5 minutes, and hit the road with a big smile on my face. Also, waking up at like 6 or 7AM. The point, is that I had to make myself go to work or class, visiting my girlfriend is something I want to do. The ability to create that energy and instantly wake up and feel wonderful in the morning all comes from the mind. So realize that if you feel badly about something, or find it difficult to do certain things, change your mind. Hold onto a different perspective in your mind. This way you will learn to activate that positive energy.
the power to live is within us. energy comes from within. create positive energy.
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joy is all there ever was
I have chosen this life for myself. I have made it. I now understand my own nature here. I know myself. In my journals I write words that mean nothing. I go to school, but they have taught me nothing I won’t lose. I look back on my life: I used to feel angry about certain things. There are times in my life I am not proud of. There are certain people I have hurt. I went through a lot of my life asking “why me?” When looking at the pieces all seems painful. I would like to regret.
I must be more than I have been. I am more than I have been. Always evolving to new stages. And this place I have been in makes me feel like… all is well. There are certain people I have met that I call Fractions. These people feel like they are two different people inside. They live a divided life. They continue to struggle and feel pain. They are sometimes depressed. I used to be in fractions, but now am whole. And once I became whole I feel as if… as if I have always been whole. I suppose that is the nature of it. And so I do not regret. I look back on my life and recognize each moment as necessary in bringing me to this place I am in now. I remember like a vague memory the times I felt broken or when I felt in pieces. But they don’t seem real to me anymore. I have arrived in the place I could only dreamed of. I am now that which I could only imagine before.
I asked for wisdom and it was given to me. I asked for my mind to be opened and it was. I asked for love and found it. All I have ever asked for has been given to me. I understand my origin-nature. I feel complete. There was a version of “me” I used to hope to become. Parts of myself I wished to change. I have arrived! And its been some time now that to me it feels an eternity. Once I became whole even my past became whole. It all makes sense in the awakening. I am now that which I could only dream of becoming.
Before all I saw were pieces and it was all I knew. Once arriving here and seeing the moments of my past and how they all fit together I realize the whole picture. It wasn’t until I saw the whole picture that I understood. Now, after seeing the whole picture, in my mind it all makes sense. So looking back at the individual moments and events in my life, I understand them. I’ve learned to love them, and in effect, love who I am. To love who I have become.
There is no longer pain. There is no more suffering. There is only joy! Yesterday I would not have thought so, but today I realize… Joy is all there ever was.
